ScintillaOfEternity

I'm that quiet, nerdy person that sits in the middle of the room and seems happy all the time.  I always get the math jokes, I always seem so smart and seem like I'm probably doing really well. You know, that one whose existence you forget about all the time.  Who invited you to that birthday party that you forgot about until she asked, and then you made an excuse because you'd made other plans.  You told her she should have invited you sooner. You know, because she invited you weeks ago. I'm that one that you stopped talking to because you weren't in the same class anymore, so you didn't see any point in saying anything since you couldn't

Even though I know his heart is mine I cry in empty pain for what should have been here When I see the way you cry for her I can't help but feel the mint stain gouging my heart That unfortunate side effect of being the human vase which means no matter how many times we break and are placed back together on the shelf Means that we will always feel empty until there is something there, That we are always broken until filled Even if it seeps out of our still unfilled cracks and causes us to shatter onto the floor again. But even when we have a vase of water and lilies, perhaps we might do better with roses or we might see ourselves